The Pre-Op Oops

I just realized last night I made a big mistake. I misunderstood that the pre-op diet was an Atkins-like diet just with more protein shakes. WRONG! It is a LIQUID PROTEIN diet. As in no cheese and ham and tons of meat, and especially not a bag of fried chicken wings like I’ve eaten this week!! I realized when I was explaining the diet to a friend last night and as I was reading out of the great manual they’ve given me, that it was LIQUIDS only. OOPS. Oh well. Today I’ve been on liquids only, and it hasn’t been so bad because I’ve already weaned myself off the carbs. So I wasn’t feeling so hungry anymore anyway. I hope that in the next three days I’m able to catch up what I didn’t do the last 4 days and that I’m able to shrink my liver enough to give the surgeon enough space to do the operation.

I have been remiss with the exercise. I have not walked 15 minutes every day. But that too I hope to start soon. I am already a little anxious about the waiting. I want it to be Wednesday and in the OR already. Tomorrow we take N to see Finding Nemo On Ice. Her first ever! I am excited for her, although she doesn’t even understand we’re taking her. I know once the show starts she will love it: the lights, the costumes, the music, the dancing. I hope to take lots of pictures.

Some people have asked me if I am nervous about the operation. Not really. I wanted it done yesterday. But I know the minute I step into the hospital and I’m sitting on the bed in my hospital gown, I will panic. I will make jokes with the nurses, I will make faces, it will be all very humorous, but I will panic. I will be completely panicked until the sedation begins, then I will willingly give in to the sleepiness with no reservations and will just feel relieved that I’m going going gone.