Thursday, October 23, 2008

On Rediscovering the Joy of Shopping

Wow. You will not believe what I just bought. Actually, I have been wearing 2-in heels for a while. And have been at work all day and been quite comfortable. But today. My people, today I bought my first 4-in heels. I felt so good in them. I really don't think I will be able to wear them all day, so I must bring low shoes to change into. But wow.

I've always wanted high leather boots. So I bought a pair of those, too. WOW! Love those too! I feel that all I need is a whip and that I might be ready for Halloween.

I now fit into XL blouses and shirts. WOW. I have a lot of lolas, so I'm not surprised that I'm not smaller. Hopefully those will go down, too, but not too much. I'm still bottom heavy, but don't know what to do about that.

Remember I mentioned the change in hormones and how it affected my perfumes? Well, I went back to Elizabeth Arden 5th Avenue. The original, not the updates they've come out with lately. It smells awesome! But I just can't believe how even perfumes are affected by me.

And I'm still embarrassed. Embarrassed that people will see my flaws, my love handles, my big ass. Embarrassed to take pictures full length although I love headshots. Embarrassed of the comments some people have made that they have noticed I have lost weight. Yet the other day I had a successful meeting at work, and felt I was floating, literally floating, and almost ran the whole way back up the hill to my building. I felt people looking at me, not in a bad way, but that somehow they could see I was on a high, I was in the clouds I was up so high. I think they were surprised of the amount of energy emanating from me. I can't remember the last time I ever felt that way. Maybe because I have never felt this way.

The clothes are not the end to the means. It is about how they make you feel. For years I have hated shopping. Now I am slowly rediscovering the joy of feeling good...

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