T minus one day!

Tomorrow is the operation. I am getting antsy. I feel like I didn’t get all I wanted to get done. Christmas decorations are still up, for crissakes!!! Laundry is clean, but unfolded. My mom’s flight was delayed, but not too bad. I’ll be going soon to pick her up. Inaru had a blast at Finding Nemo yesterday!!! I always forget how commercial those shows are, but this one wasn’t so bad. The whole underwater theme, the lights, the costumes, the music, the dancing, the skating was all perfect. And the view from the third row from the ice was not bad either. Inaru stayed still and watched the whole thing. It was a perfect family outing. I think it was a little too much for A, but we went for N’s sake, not ours, and I enjoyed watching N enjoy it. Her eyes lit up and she laughed and pointed and “Uh-Oh”-ed and commented.

I feel like I’m surviving on coffee. Coffee and a protein shake. I’m so hungry I’m not even hungry anymore, I’m not sure if you get that. The plus side is without much food in the system, medicines work fast and well. That little Ambien last night had me drowsy in 10 minutes… Ahhh, sleep. I’ve never had a problem sleeping until recently. And sleeping with a mask is not easy, either.

I realize a lot of people have no idea what I’m talking about. For some reason, I forgot to explain that part. I am getting the Lap Band. It is not gastric bypass. It is a removable, reversible, and adjustable band that goes around the upper part of the stomach. It creates a new much smaller pouch that allows you to eat very very little and feel satiated for a much longer time. It is not the magic bullet. It is a tool. I will still have to eat healthy, exercise, and work on my psychological needs for food, although physiologically I will feel full. I have no idea what to expect in weight loss and how fast. Everyone is different. My goal is to be a healthy BMI (Body Mass Index). Hopefully, as I lose weight, my health conditions will improve. Keep in mind I have a BMI now of 56.